today i completed my junior year of college

and now i am sitting here. staring at my empty totes.  and all the junk scattered around the room i have had to myself for the last four months. and i wonder how i will pack it all. thank goodness D is coming tomorrow to help me move out. 

so right now i will reminisce. 

i started here at wu in august, didn’t know anybody, didn’t know what the heck i was doing. my community college degree didn’t prepare me for “real” college life. so i didn’t branch out. i didn’t make an effort to make friends. i made excuses to stay in my room most of the time. like a hermit. 

but i am thankful for finding FBCRH. my fbc group kept me alive fall semester. 

january. january was the beginning of a new year. i reached out. branched out. joined AΩ. went to BCM. fell in love with the Lord. was pulled from darkness into light. and became the person i wanted to be. mostly. still working on some things though. 

but right now i want to thank some people. 
my AΩ loves: my big Ashley! my fellow cherubs Abbey, Alyssa, Julie & Rayne. and my other sisters ashley, bethany, christen, dee, erin, jolie, kaitlin, kaley, kara, katie, lauren, mariah, nina, ruth & terri!! 

my bcm friends: jack & carrie, rachel k, tabetha, lindsey (future roomie!), brittany, stephanie, christine, jamie, rachel t, and everyone else :) I can’t wait for next year! its gonna be epic!

finally, the friends that became my second family: fbcrh! will & lori - thank you for the encouragement and love and wisdom and for sunday night bible study!! chip & carlie - i have loved sunday school & awkward conversations & chasing rabbit trails & sunday lunches with you guys! i can’t wait for ya’lls wedding this summer =)

and to MAISIE! girlfriend i will never forget this year, and thanks to you, i have beautiful memories to look back on. i will miss you dearly this summer, and next school year especially. i can’t believe you are gettin married and leavin us ;) you have been such a blessing in my life i cannot even express my gratitude. 

but, despite all of the beautiful people that i have in my life, i still can’t help but to feel a twinge of pain… sadness. i finished this year without MY besfren. not a day has gone by that i haven’t thought about you. prayed for you. loved you. I’M still here, jess. come find me.

and emmalone. oh emmalone :) you have kept me insane and i love you for that. i can’t believe you’re going to SPAIN! this summer!!! omg! enjoy it for me! te diviertas =)

so now i’m gonna stop writing and post this without going back through it to look for grammatical errors. because i don’t care right now. its summer. and i’m me.