6.24.2011

what kind of fool

can we ever have a happy ending
or will we forever always be
pretending?

6.13.2011

Author Unknown

"Every now and then
I have a remarkably vivid dream of you
And though they are growing
Far and few between
I am always left shaken;
Heart in two.
I would appreciate it if you would
Stay out of my subconscious
From now on."

6.08.2011

What do you say to taking chances?

Go now, and live.
Experience. Dream. Risk.
Close your eyes and jump.
Enjoy the freefall.
Choose exhilaration over comfort.
Choose magic over predictability.
Choose potential over safety.
Wake up to the magic of everyday life.
Make friends with your intuition.
Trust your gut.
Discover the beauty of uncertainty.
Know yourself fully before you make promises to another.
Make millions of mistakes so that you will know how to choose what you really need.
Know when to hold on and when to let go.
Love hard and often and without reservation.
Seek knowledge.
Open yourself to possibility.
Keep your heart open, your head high, and your spirit free.
Embrace your darkness along with your light.
Be wrong every once in awhile, and don't be afraid to admit it.
Awaken to the brilliance in ordinary moments.
Tell the truth about yourself no matter what the cost.
Own your reality without apology.
See goodness in the world.
Be bold. Be fierce. Be grateful.
Be wild, crazy, and gloriously free.
Be you.
Go now, and live.

5.24.2011

this isn't how it was supposed to end

now that its all said and done
i can't believe you were the one
to build me up and tear me down
just like an old abandoned house

what you said when you left
just left me cold and out of breath
i felt as if i was in way too deep
i guess i let you get the best of me


you took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
packed your bags and walked away
there was nothing i could say

when you slammed the front door shut
a lot of others opened up
so did my eyes so i could see
that you never were the best for me


well i never saw it comin
i shoulda started runnin
a long, long time ago

and i never thought i'd doubt you
i'm better off without you
more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly gettin closure
i guess its really over
i'm finally gettin better

i'm pickin up the pieces
i'm spending all of these years
putting my heart back together


cause the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you


daughtry: "over you"

5.15.2011

rhapsody

"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

-anonymous

5.07.2011

its like i've been erased

how can it be that easy to forget? me? i would like to forget. but there are too many memories. its like going back five years and pretending it all didn’t happen. 
forget about high school… AP english & AP us history & AP government, junior prom, chesapeake square & red robin, don’s dates, sleepovers, bonfires, senior prom after party, disney movie days, graduation: #9, 4.109…
forget about community college… rabiu’s biology lab, the newsletter, PTK, study dates, online public speaking, OBX week…
how do you forget five years of happiness & love & friendship?? 
she freakin hangs out with my sister every day! and it doesn’t even phase her? 
i am trying to move on, but hurt and anger still linger deep in my heart. i don’t know if i can ever get over this.